What is happiness? I always looking for my kind of happiness since I left high school.
When I was young (I am not very old now ok), just like 6/7 years back. I thought looking for a rich boyfriend, smart boyfriend could make me happy. Pui!!! Now I think this kind of boyfriend is the worst boyfriend. He is rich, that is his family's wealthiness. He is smart, good in his academic result does not mean anything in future. What he has now are not belong to him. He does not earn that and he tend to not to know how to appreciate what he gets now.
What I want now is a mature boyfriend, who can give me secure. I hope he has his own career which he earns every cent he has now with his own hard work. While he is older, he has more life experiences which he can give me advices and lead me. He will also be more appreciate to what he own now (some, not all). These are just superficial.
Actually, what I really want is just a simple happiness. Simple happiness can get from every small little things he does. A warm sweet hug, cuddling at home watching TV, a smelly good morning and morning kiss in the morning, a simple brunch in pyjamas. (I am so auntie.)
Just get someone you can be yourself when you are with him. In my imaginary, I have a boyfriend who is just standing there, waiting for me before going out for a meal and when I see him I will run-fly to him, hang on his body and give him a kiss. Or I am waiting him at the lift, when the lift is open, I see him and I give him a big hug. I always imagine this, I thought it would be easy to make it happen between all couple. From one of my experience, I cannot do it. I realised it is not so easy to make these small simple little things to happen.
Is that easy to meet someone that will make you love yourself more? Especially when you are with him? I do met one but we are not meant to be together at the end. But it was a good experience and I will keep looking for a better one, someone can make me fall in love with myself again.